"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breaths away."

7.05.2012

Life like this

Update: I haven't posted in quite some time once again, so here goes a little catching up... I am now Mrs. Trosclair! Yes we did get married. May 19, 2012 @ 5 pm. Cody is still working @ Eastern Plating. I am still a stay at home mommy and I do believe this qualifies as a full time job with plenty of overtime. I'm still trying to figure out why I don't get paid for it :/ The summer is in full swing. Temps have been nearing or passing the 100 mark and that is a tad bit too hot for me. But at least it beats the cold weather. We have been swimming several times and have found a few outdoor activities that the kids enjoy such as using the crayon squirters from the Dollar tree with a bucket of water. Most definately keeps them occupied for awhile. London is now 10 months old and growing like a weed... She finally learned to crawl at 8 and a half months. She is beginning to pull herself up to a standing position, so I'm sure it won't be too much longer before she figures out the walking process. However, still no teeth. I'm sure that won't be too much longer though. Bout time to start planning for her first bday party although we still haven't decided on a theme yet. Ashtyn and Kaeden have been attending Bible school at Grace Baptist Church this week. I think they have enjoyed themselves but they don't tell us much so I'm not so sure. Kaeden begins summer school next week. I'm a little excited about that. Partly because of the short break I will be getting from him and partly because I think he will enjoy it. Plus it will prepare him a little more for "Big" school. It's hard to believe he will be starting kindergarten already. Ashtyn will be starting pre-school this year. She is extremely excited. I hope Erika (her cousin) will get to go with her. Thank God their schools are so close together so I don't have to run all over the county every day and it wont be too far from our home. Now just to start working on a more efficient discipline method because right now it seems nothing is working.
*Learning goals for this month include: For Kaeden- learn to write name, learn address and telephone #, learn to write most letters. For Ashtyn- learn to start writing name, learn address and phone # and learn #s 1-10.
Next phase of our life- FIND A HOME! I am more than ready to find us a house. I hope by our one year anniversary we will be in our own home! That would be an anniversary gift in itself. Then maybe we can begin thinking about adding to our family. I guess only time will tell. Needless to say I am already tired of the apartment we are in now... Not so much because of the apartment itself, just feel like we have no privacy, we have had a problem with bedbugs {grrrrr} and there are way too many people here. and oh yeah, I can't really be as creative in our apartment as I would like to be. Plus, I think $500 a month is way too much to be paying for something that will never be ours! So realtors, here we come!
Personal Goals: I am trying to lose weight. I weigh around 116 now. My goal is to be at 112 in a month. that would be a pound a week. I think I can, I think I can :) then so on and so on. My other goal is to stop cursing as and to work on my anger and not letting it get out of control. I want to learn better ways to control myself when I'm upset especially with my husband and my children.

5.08.2012

April Showers bring May Flowers....

well... actually Cody brought them home and surprised me! After having a not so great night the day before, all I could do was smile when he walked through the door with these. This is the first time he has ever bought me flowers. They are beautiful and smell like the fresh air outside. Although, I would have rather had red or white roses, I def won't be picky and he has the rest of our life to learn more about me! After opening the card, I was almost in tears. I was really upset the night before and these definately made things a little better!
Even though, his handwriting is not the best in the world, these four words meant the world to me. I am a very lucky girl to have someone who really loves me and my kids as much as he truly does even if he sometimes has a hard time showing it and may not always realize how much we really love him. So tomorrow, I'm going to begin a countdown until we become husband and wife. It will only be ten more days! Except, instead of just counting down, I want to recognize one reason for each day that I am in love with him. So, for the next 10 days, you can look forward to reading about the top ten reasons I want to spend the rest of my life with Cody Trosclair along with maybe a few other thoughts that may run through my mind! For now, I need to make out a grocery list and figure out all of the things I need to do in the next two weeks!

5.07.2012

Wedding Bliss(less)

What on Earth is my mind going though right now? I have so many fears, so many thoughts and way too much time. I know compared to many, my story is less than something to be complaining about and maybe I should focus on that, but right now I just want to be a bit selfish. I do my very best every day to take the best care of my family. My soon to be husband and my three precious children. I rarely have time for myself and when I do I am overwhelmed with all that I need to do and the fact that I have very little energy or time to do it all. I feel like a failure all to often because I feel like I don't spend enough real 'time' with my babies and I feel like I have missed so many things by just not paying enough attention. Don't get me wrong I am with them nearly every hour of every day, but sometimes they just exist and I just make sure they are taken care of and take for granted the little things that I should be paying attention to. For example, I know in the past few days Ashtyn has asked me what seems like a million times to play dolls or littlest pets with her and I've told her each and every time that I am too busy and still haven't made time for that yet. Next on my agenda, play with my little girl while she's still little. If she's anything like myself, she surely won't be this little for long.
I am terribly emotional right now. Have absolutely no clue why. I asked my kids today what they wanted to be when they grow up and Ashtyn said she wanted to be a cooker lol. At the thought of that, I kinda giggled and thought to myself that I hope she cooks better than her mommy. Then, I asked Kaeden, not really even expecting an answer, and to my surprise all he said was.... "like Cody". I burst into tears. I am so angry at the fact that his real "dad" never had any interest in being his Dad. But also, I am very thankful that he does have someone that he will eventually see as his DAD and I thank God every day that Cody is here for them and I know in my heart that he doesn't have to be.
As for our wedding, I am excited, nervous, emotional, happy, angry, sad and I believe about all of the emotions I could possibly be right now. I am excited that I love this man with all of my heart and that I am going to be spending the rest of my life with him. I am nervous of just the thought of getting married and of seeing Cody in a tux. I am happy that we found each other. I am angry that he hasn't helped me plan much of anything and that I wanted it to be something we did together. I am sad that most of his family won't be able to be there although I am glad that some of them will and I'm excited for them to finally meet our daughter. I don't know. I'm sure after it is all said and done, that I will be thrilled.
I suppose I am finished venting now and I can go on with my day. I will surely be busy the next couple weeks and time is flying by so quickly. Hope everyone has a good day as well as myself and my family unlike yesterday!

4.30.2012

{un}blinded Eyes

Ephesians 1:18 (NIV)
I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people

I have definately had my eyes opened in the past month or so by reading scripture and encouragement from http://unveiledwife.com/. Through Jennifer, God has opened my heart to learning how to love my soon to be husband and forever companion and best friend. She has encouraged me to want to be a better wife, mother, daughter and simply a better Christian. I have realized that if and when I put God first and foremost in my life, everything else will fall into place.

I have many things that have been weighing heavily on my mind in recent times and let's all be realistic here, in this day and time, who doesn't? I guess my main goal that I want to accomplish is to let everyone know that Life isn't and prob never will be perfect, but if we all hang in there and pray daily for one another and continue uplifting and encouraging one another, we will make it through. I know in the past I have been guilty of wanting everyone to think my life is perfect. But really it isn't. I get more than stressed. I have three children. One with autism that tests my patience but in return teaches me so many things about life. A three year old daughter, whom is at the age that she is learning to be stubborn and trying to see how far she can get. She is definately showing me that I have to be strong in my discipline and stick to what I say. And of course our 7 month old little girl, that I want to teach the things that I've learned from my other two little ones the first go round. I have a fiance that has different opinions than myself. We don't always see eye to eye on everything, but at the end of the night I am still more in love with him than I was that morning when I opened my eyes. I want other women to know that through it all , Everything will be alright and that someone somewhere is praying for you and your struggles and thanking God for your triumphs. So, I hope that you will follow me through my up, downs, struggles, triumphs, sadnesses, joys, trials and all the other moments that I want to treasure in life. And even if no one is reading this, I am still encouraged to write it so I can look back for myself and see what I've overcome and reminisce over things that are mere bittersweet memories later.

4.21.2012

Insomnia... o how I loathe thee...

Can't sleep... not sure if it's the bug bites on my hands that are constantly itching, the endless thoughts in my mind, or possibly the fact that everyone else in the house is sleeping and it's well... Quiet. Most likely a combination of all three. So, let's play catch-up.

Monday, was probably a busy day but honestly I can't really remember. It seems like it has been forever ago.

Tuesday, I cleaned pretty much the entire day. Got a few groceries. Had a bit of an argument with Cody. Finally, crashed and got up again at 4:30 a.m. again on Wednesday to finish cleaning and preparing for our apartment inspection on Wednesday.

Wednesday, quickly changed clothes and got myself and all 3 little ones ready to go after cleaning for a full 3 and a half hrs and managing to get the entire house looking fairly spotless. Took the girls to my mom's. Met Kaeden's classmates and teachers at his school and rode the bus to Rainforest Adventures! Thoroughly enjoyed myself with my son and his class (although it rained and was a bit chilly). Came home, had passed our inspection with flying colors, and hurried back to my mom's to pick up the girls. I think this is the night I made the 'Taco Cupcakes'. Plain Chicken They turned out amazing and quite simple if I may say so myself.


Thursday, got up late. Ashtyn and London didnt feel well. Decided not to send Kaeden to school. wasted a bit of time although I have no idea where it went or what I did, and rushed to get the kids to Rachel so we would be on time for Cody to take his road test and get his license. Apparently I didnt rush enough cause I got lost and we ended up being late and missing it anyway :/ On the positive side we did go eat at la Carreta and ate way too much. Then went back to mom's and spent the remainder of the evening there.

Friday, once again, quickly got up and got myself and the kids ready. Took Kaeden to meet the bus. Dropped the girls off at mom's again. (yes i know, I am very thankful for my mom) I, then, drove to the main Head Start office and met with Ms. Trudy and we took a bus to Jefferson City to a luncheon. I have to say it was more than enjoyable and I had a great time! I absolutely loved the sweet little older ladies and the good company of the other mothers and teachers. We were entertained by a group of Head Start children :), a local aspiring musician, Travis Singleton www.travissingleton.com, and the food was absolutely amazing! Once back in Newport, I sold a few items that I had listed online and had just enough time to pick up Kaeden! Back to mom's. Back home. Trip to Walmart to get ink that I had already purchased that didnt work and to rent a movie that we didnt even watch.

finally Saturday, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. The week is almost over. Been working on Wedding invitations all day. I am exhausted, and seems like I have a mild case of Insomnia at this moment in time.

4.13.2012

Hippity~Hop: Easter 2012


Our family Easter 2012
So Sunday was Easter and even though I'm a few days late I want to post about our fun filled day with the family! We enjoyed lunch @ mom and dad's just like we usually do each year. This year we had hotdogs and ham sandwiches. much more simple but with plenty of food and a lot less work :) It seems like every year we have more and more little ones. It seems that each family adds an addition each year. This year the new additions were Ethan (Derrick & Angie), London (Cody & I), and Dominic (Buddy & Rachel). I know that doesnt sound like many new little ones but when you look at the fact that they make 3 for each of our families, they add up lol.
Kaeden & Ashtyn eating the candy out of their eggs.
 Cody and Buddy hid all the eggs after Rachel filled them all with candy. All the kids enjoyed finding them and of course the candy didn't last long at all! I love all the Spring colors and the pretty dresses on Easter!

London's 1st Easter!







London was pretty good most of the day! She wasn't quite big enough yet to hunt eggs but next year I'm sure she will love it!


Mom loves doing Easter at her house I do believe. She enjoys all the time with the family.




Mom and I
Buddy and his mini me's !
This is the first year Buddy and Rachel have lived here and not just been here for a short vacation!


Three generations of Gunter's. 2012. Overall, Easter was a big success. I always enjoy family get-togethers. Sometimes it seems more like a family reunion lol.
Papaw, Buddy & the boys, Dad

Now to start preparing for our wedding and William's 3rd bday! Excitement :)

Cody, myself and our baby girl, London (7 months old)


4.12.2012

It's been awhile....Again :/

well, once again, it has been awhile since I've posted anything... well a lllooonnnggg while that is. Anyways, I or well I guess I should say "we" have been extremely busy with.. well, just life. haha I used the word 'well' many times in the first 2 sentences. Let's see, Cody and I have had our baby. Miss London Avery! She is already 7 months old. wow how the time flies. Kaeden started preschool in August and is nearly out now. As well as the fact that he was diagnosed with Autism... a disorder I kinda already knew he had. Ashtyn turned 3! My brother and his family moved back home (after having a new baby) and WE ARE GETTING MARRIED! yay!!! I'm really excited and couldn't be happier with the amazing man I am going to spend the rest of my life with! ok, so quickly, I have to go... Gotta get ready to go talk to the preacher about our wedding... but I promise this time I will be back sooner! like a lot sooner :) got lots of catching up to do!
Cody Trosclair, Fiance

Kaeden Makiah Davidson, Son

Ashtyn Shaide Davidson, Daughter

London Avery Trosclair, Daughter

Randy Gunter, Dad

Teresa Gunter, Mom

Randall (Buddy) Gunter, Brother

Rachel Gunter, Sister in law

Erika Young, Niece

William Gunter, Nephew

Dominic Gunter, Newphew







Ashley Bier
Jennifer Byer
Sharon Walker
Erica Scalf





Movie: P.S. I Love You
Colors in order: Black, Red, Brown, Green
Reality Shows: American Idol, Dancing with the Stars
Book: Anything by Nicholas Sparks and The Twilight Series